don't let me know that you're fooling me. just don't let me..
07-02-07 My birthday. a not soooo happy birthday. everything seems to be in their wrong place. when i got home from s.m north edsa with my hubbie. plakda ako agad sa bed. im not feeling well that night. may paltos pa yung paa ko because of my shoes, worst is, dumudugo pa yung paltos ko. antas kasi ng heels. though kasama ko hubbie ko, it doesn't mean na im not happy. syempre, im happy.. hello?! sino bang hindi sasaya diba? iba lang talaga yung feeling. mom and kuya rod went to new york already. this is my first ever birthday without them. actually, i don't feel special on my birthday. it feels like its just an ordinary day. we didn't even ate dinner outside (we usually eat dinner outside everytime there's an occasion like birthday or whatsoever.), dad arrived home late. haii. i was crying before i fall asleep in my kuya rod's bed. since him and mom were in n.y already, i sleep in kuya's bed.. haii. i missin' them badly. hope they'll come home soon. i love you mom and kuya. ='(
07-04-07 i don't have any class today. but we have our nstp orientation from 12:30 to 5:00. i have no choice but to attend. i need to have my attendance checked, or else i might fail in my nstp subject. thought it only have 2 units.. its still important. sayang ang pera! after nstp. carla and i went to mcdo morayta to meet jec, carly, chard, mai and therese. hmm, hindi ko man nga lang sila nilibre ng mcdo eh. wala talaga akong money. when i got home.. as usual tired. hmm.. plakda agad sa kama..
07-05-07 this is the most fuckin' day ever of my life. me and bry had a big damn fuckin' fight! inaaaa!... i don't wanna tell the whole story. ang haba eh. taena. its just becuase i accused him that he still smokes (its bad for him kasi may ubo siya at bawal naman talaga ang mag smoke diba?!). aiun! poof magic!.. yung heart necklace na binigay niya... i thought tinapon niya. yun pala tinago niya (bigay niya kasi sakin yun nung father's day sa may sto. domingo church). i treasure that necklace so much. tinulungan pa nga ako ng dad niya na maghanap nung necklace eh. waah! ='( iyak na tlga ako ng iyak nun. nagawa pa nga niya akong sigawan sa street eh. inaaa! hiyang hiya ako nun.. hindi ko maisip na gagawin niya yun. inaaa! pero nagsorry pa din ako. fault ko tlga eh. kasi napalakas yung boses ko nung i-naccuse ko siyang nagyoyosi pasiya, kahit hindi narin naman daw talaga. sinuntok ko yung pader. kaya right now, nama-maga yung both hands ko. hainako. alam na rin niy kuya jay na kami ni bry this day. nung pauwi kasi ako akala ko nakita niya ko, hindi pala siya yun. ibang tao yun.. namalik mata lang ako. kasing tindig kasi ng kuya ko. kaya aiun. ako naman tong eng-eng, inamin ko na. kasi ayoko rin namang nagsisinungaling sakanila eh.. i've lost my brother's trust once.. at hindi na mauulit yun. ayokong mawala tiwala sakin ng kuya ko, dahil mahirap ibalik yun. mahirap. haii..
07-07-07 still, namamaga yung both hands ko. pero ok na kami ni hubbie. yun nga lang.. parang kung kailan kailangan ko siya to comfort me.. dun siya wala. i called him mga 12:55 a.m, si edward nakasagot ng cell niya. binigay sakanya, tas parang he's very eager to put down the phone. inaaa! wag mo lang papahuli sakin na may iba ka jan ha? alam ko wala namang iba. pero please don't fool me.. don't let me know that you're fooling me. tsktsktsk. i wish you know what your doing. sana nakakaramdam ka. makiramdam ka na lang kung hindi ka nakakaramdam.
7 x 2 = 14
14. akala ko pa naman, swerte ako for this day. hindi pala. damn right!
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